Overwhelm and Irrational Fear on the Way to Financial Independence…(Having a Bad Day)

A dramatic title for what could be ‘just a bad day’…

This week so far has been a real low point for me, so as part of this long financial independence journey I’m on, I thought it was good to record that, as it’s real and I’m struggling.

Work is just as busy as it has been the last few months and I’m not demotivated by my goals; in fact, the more I think about what I want and plan for it, and the more I say the words out loud, the more confident I am, and the more real it feels, that I can do this.

I think what I’m feeling right now is overwhelmed.

For context, as part of my foray into trying to increase my income I opened an Etsy store a couple of months ago, to sell printables. Yes, a popular and saturated market, but I’m creative by nature and thought it didn’t hurt to give it a try. Well, this morning I got a notification congratulating me on my first sale…

I should be excited, inspired and hopeful, but all I feel now is pressure and fear. What if the person who bought my product doesn’t like it, and gives me a bad review? How do I build on this, because it took me so long to come up with the ideas that I already designed so far? Can I even do this?

I know I’m not the first person to be in this position and feel this way, but why do I? This one, small sale should be giving me hope that I can do this and that I should keep going. I know failure is part of the journey to success, but I’m scared. And no doubt anyone else reading this is thinking ‘she’s making a mountain out of a molehill’ …

Writing this is helpful though. It’s easy to forget the power of writing, but already after these few paragraphs I feel like my mind is starting to thaw ever so slightly. Clearly, I didn’t anticipate this small success and hadn’t ventured to think any further, but that’s what I need to do. Set small goals. Be consistent. Keep working. These are the things I already know, but for some reason the logic got away from me.

So, for today I can check off ‘set small goals’ from my ‘to do’ list, and I will spend a bit of time tonight working on that. But not before I allow myself a few moments to celebrate this small win and step towards my goals.

One small Etsy sale today = endless possibilities for the future!

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